I'm back,as a teacher!

I've abandoned this blog for quite some time. Yea...I know it's my fault for leaving it to weep silently for its loneliness.

Well,I was too busy to type a post ever since I've touched down Penang's International Airport.

Yup,first,I celebrated Christmas 2010 in church! It has been almost 10 years since the last time I spend my Christmas night in church worship God.

And New Year countdown,it has been a blessing and new way of celebrating it. Yea,I chose to countdown in church,giving thanks to God for last year. It was my first time. I waved goodbye to 2010 with a grateful heart; And I welcome 2011 with a blessed heart!

And now,it's 2011. I started my year as a practical teaching in CLHS. The school culture freaked me out during the first week (which was last week). Their discipline system though is strict (I mean extremely tight with no loose end),yet I must say,it is very systematic as well. Students wouldn't dare to talk even in medium-pitch voice with their teachers. I pity them sometimes. They have no freedom in school. They must follow the one thousand and one school rules inside and outside their classroom. Students are like prisoners in this school.

Apart from that, the teachers were very unfriendly to us, trainees. They looked at us as though we came from Mars. They would not even smile to us although we smiled and greeted all of them. I didn't like the way I was treated that time. We were not given even a proper table or chair in the staffroom. All we had were 4 wooden tables used by students in the classroom, situated in an unwanted corner in the room. I was kinda upset for being treated so. But now,I'm loving our private corner as we had so much fun and companionship during the hours we do not have to enter the class.

NOW.......

Things got better as we shifted into the second week (this week)! Most of the teachers started to smile back as we gave them our best-est smile every day! Though some still ignored us, I won't give a damn care about them =P Some of them even approached us and talked to us. They gave us some encouragement and support from time to time.

Finally, angels are sent to us!

I'm loving this profession! Though I still gotta brush up my skills, I'm enjoying my internship as a trainee teacher! I love teaching the kids,even though some of them really pissed me off. Still,I think I've fallen in love with my profession =D

Coming soon: I'll blog about my students NEXT! =D

That's all for tonight. Time to get back to work. A teacher's life is mostly dedicated to school and students. I have to plan for next week's activities! Till then, tata~~~~

〈最後一次〉

最近一直在听这首歌.很喜欢这首歌~
也许是MV的拍摄加上流传的故事,大幅度地增加了这首歌的感动.
简单的旋律,很容易琅琅上口哼着曲子.
没有花花绿绿的歌词,让人印象深刻.

歌词:

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里 舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇

不能再陪你 但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方

不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮

所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易

生死由天决定 不要太伤心

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里 舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇

不能再陪你 但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里 舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇

不能再陪你 但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

我 永远 爱你。

流传背后的故事

有一对感情非常好的小情侣
双方家长都非常满意对方
准备大学毕业就结婚正当高三开学不久
学校体检
检查出那个女孩的血蛋白有异常
之后去医院检查
查出她患了一种非常罕见的隐形皮肤遗传病
这种病越严重皮肤就越嫰

就像宝宝皮肤一样
最后会因为皮肤太嫰
承受不了肌肉和血管的内压而撑裂

虽然不能医治
但那个男孩和双方家长
都要求那个女孩住院
就算不能医治也要尽量活长一点

当医生确定女孩还有不到一年的生命的时候
那个女孩好像抛开所有的恐惧似的
不再把自己关在病房里不见人
而是天天都和那个男孩和家人出去散散步看看日出日落
也就在那时她开始写日记
努力的记录已成过去的日子与所剩无几的时间

当那个女孩再写到某一次和那个男出去的时候
女孩才发觉
笔下的文字
绝大多都是她和那个男孩一起经历的事
那个男孩已经成为自己不可缺少的一部分
于是那个女孩决定留下一份礼物给那个男孩


荆莿鸟的绝唱

若干星期过去
曲作好词填好
就找朋友帮忙语录歌
已经病入膏盲的女孩
喉咙的皮肤用大力一点就会出血
但都坚持要自己唱

当U盘出来之后
那个女孩竟然要求安乐死
还说一开始就打算这么做
而且和那个男孩说要陪着她到她睡着
还说要在临睡前对那个男孩说一句话
手术关灯熄灭之后
那个男孩出来
那个女孩的妈妈把U盘给了那个男孩
那个男孩听完之后
和他妈妈说
女孩最后对他说的是：
“在也不能看日出了

不过我不怕
因为是你陪着我睡着......
我爱你”

因为那个女孩最喜欢就是看日出了
所以那个男孩决定要走遍可以到的地方
将每一个地方的日出都送给那个女孩

2008年年头
那个男孩在一次上山的照日出的时候
失足堕山
被人发现的时候尸体已经腐烂不堪
然而相片里面
朝阳的霞红依然充满温馨

clhs

Forcing myself to wake up at 10:30 this morning,just to make a phone call. And,well,it's confirmed! I'm going to CLHS for my teaching practicum. I've talked to God about a deal and I suppose God has shone on the pathway I should take. Hopefully,I'll have a pretty fine,peaceful 4 months school teaching life.

What's next? I'm still in the midst about that. Yet,I've faith that God will lead me through the way as time comes. Let's just concentrate on the coming-soon teaching practicum life first ;-D

My practicum clothes is temporarily enough. I'll get a few more when I go back,I think. I hope the school won't have a word on my fashion ;-P

Jingle bell~Jingle Bell~

When you see this picture around you, and when you feel this atmosphere all around you, then you know that something is going to happen, something is coming! And Christmas is that something!

Everywhere, people are thrilled about Christmas. People love Christmas so much! For some, Christmas is a day which Santa is highly talked about. For some, Christmas is a day which children get presents. For some, Christmas is nothing special but a normal day. However, most importantly, for most people, Christmas is the day we remember someone SPECIAL born as our life saviour with the heart of gratitude. Without him, there is no hope for the future. Without him, we would not be freed from our burdens and sin. This special someone is the reason people celebrate Christmas enthusiastically! And who is He, you asked?

His name is [JESUS].

Worry #1

My youngest brother has been a problematic kid as he grows. Don't get me wrong. He's such a kind-hearted, sweet, filial boy since young. However,he has a very weak soul and spirit. He gets to believe in things easily and way too much. Sometimes, he caused some problems which hurt my parents' heart.

He has now converted into a Christian. Thank God,Amen! Yet,my worry for him increases. No one could understand how I feel right now. As I type the words,tears roll down.

My cousin brought him to her church. I've been to that church before. I simply don't like the atmosphere there. I can't adapt to that. The believers admire and worship their pastor highly. Something which I could not accept. To me,there is none you should be worshiping except God. Their pastor seems to love attention and honour from the church members under him. The worship session is weird to me too. They sang mostly songs written and sang by their pastor. Maybe I'm a frog under the well, not knowing much about church activities and agenda. Still,my instinct told me "Somethings not right". I've tried to ask my Christian friend in my hometown and she,who had ever joined that church's worship,gave me the same thought as mine.

I'm happy,certainly,that my brother has accepted Jesus as his saviour and having the passion in knowing God. But I'm just so worried that someday I might lose a brother who grew up with me because of the influence from the weird church. I wish to bring him to another church but I can't. I'm not in my hometown all year round. All I could do is to pray for him every night. Pray that he is on the right path in knowing God. Sadly,that is the only thing I can do right now. I just don't know what to do besides that....

Window's opened

God has opened another window for my future.

Is this what God has planned for me? It's too early to say anything.

We'll just wait and see. Time will prove it all.

[God,I thank You for understanding my worries. I pray for strength and determination. I pray for luck and bright future. God,I thank You for Your blessings. I thank You for the opportunities You've opened up for me. God,I rest my hand on Yours. Amen!]

P for Persistent

Recently,I'm learning to be persistent in things I've decided on doing.

What is it?

It's an idea I've thought of to improve my oral pronunciation - Reading Aloud.

Yea,I spend at least 15 minutes - 30 minutes daily reading English text from Reader's Digest to Inspirational and Spiritual book.

The hope is to improve my slip of tongue and avoid inaccurate pronunciation which I always have had due to anxiety or complicated pronunciations.

I've no idea whether it does help, but at least,spending some time to read everyday is as well a good thing to do =)

Too bad my mp4 charger is gone. I'm thinking of transferring audio book to it and listen to Real English audio every night I sleep.

Call me nuts for doing this, but, at least that is my lil' effort in improving my English.

Coming from a non-English speaking family and situated in a community which uses 95% of Mandarin, I know my problem in English.

I'm lack of English exposure every day!

So,effort is needed.

Hopefully,I'll cling onto the big P at least for this semester break~